Trying to find rain, in the mist of this drought

Broke hearted as I walk down this street, with all these tears that are running down my cheeks, wondering why, why must this be? Why can’t I be good enough for somebody.. For I wish someone could love me for me. And be proud of who I am and who I will become. For it would be a blessing for anyone to love me. Thinking why ? Why am I here, for no body cares and no body will ever love me. Wishing we could go back to the day, the day where no matter the situation, happiness always filled the air, as sadness was never to be found. But as for now feeling all alone and like no body wants me. With all this pain building up, I grabbed a knife, going to end my life…this is it , it’s all going to end, but as the tears filled my eyes, and I looked over to see, my bible open to John chapter three, saying god so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, for me. As I wiped away the tears I prayed asking god would you except me? Than god said to me “come as you are for I love you and who you will become. For you have a purpose in life, so as my arms are wide open.. Come, come as you are, because I love you for you.” but as for today God still loves me, even after all I have went through, and he’ll never leave me…